I began a Juice cleanse on November 5, 2016. I chose to do this cleanse to reboot my system after months of eating processed junk foods that left me lethargic, depressed and looking like I was 5 months pregnant.
My initial goal for juicing was to feel better and allow my digestive system to rest. I was also sick of eating, chewing, binging and feeling guilty and miserable.
I realized I was using food in the same manner as I used to use alcohol, to avoid dealing with my emotions. This was a wake up call for me and I had to deal with what I was avoiding or I was heading down a dangerous path. Food addiction is real and it can kill you.
I realized I was holding on to a poor self concept that I developed during an abusive relationship. I have been out of this relationship for a decade but I was still holding on to this self concept. I believed I was not good enough and didn’t deserve to have good things. I was not only holding on to it mentally, but physically as well. For the past 10 years I have been 200lbs or more carrying over 55lbs of trauma weight, (weight I gained for protection during the abusive relationship I was in).
I went years without dealing with how the trauma effected me, now that I’m finally acknowledging it, I’m ready to let go of the self concept and the weight that came along with it.
Before I started my juice cleanse, I started eating clean. I ate more fruits and vegetables and I avoided processed foods. I would go to the juice bar in my neighborhood and have a juice for dinner. After about a week or two I decided to go a day with just juice.
The first couple of days were challenging, I wasn’t hungry but it felt weird not chewing.
As the days passed I felt felt better. I was more focused and open. Willing to release the hold of my past and embrace a new future. I felt lighter emotionally and it was reflected physically. In three weeks I lost 20 pounds.
I admit the weight loss is a pleasant side effect but I am more inspired by feeling better emotionally, mentally as well as physically.
I’m glad I did this. The cleanse has helped me release and quiet the voice that had been driving me toward self sabotage all these years. I slowed things down to work on myself internally and the affect has helped me to lose weight and “normalize “. I am ready to move forward with a better sense of who I am and not who someone told me I was.
Next blog I will give tips on starting a juice cleanse
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